Dreams Coming True

Watching, waiting, contemplating...

The next move will be the best move

Where dreams come true- we've been waiting so long.

My little dog and I

For our very own castle

Our own home to buy.

It's truly our turn;

Joy is coming our way...

There'll be a yard with organic veggies

And a place for Mal to play.

Our own piece of heaven

With our own four walls...

With great, quiet neighbors

No screaming kid down the halls!

Something to own 

And decorate to my wishes

A table for four

With bright-colored dishes.

Every woman's home is her castle

This I know is true

For there are many mansions

And one's exactly right for you!

Thoughts on Home...

Home is where the warm, quiet stillness within my heart radiates outward...

Home is tangible... 


It's coming home to my vinyl-sided pale yellow castle and being bombarded with wet, sloppy kisses painted onto my cheeks from  a pair of little red hounds who have been longing for me to return from the day's adventures.

Home is where my organic veggie food grows in the backyard, sprouting up from the Earth to greet the warm Sun or thirstily drink in the raindrops on a grey October day.

At Home is where I dance on hardwood floors to rhythmic beats of Bono singing "Surrender" from 1983. Home IS surrendering...

Where we cuddle on the over-sized velvety  sofa with our  arms wrapped around each other, enthralled with a new release movie.

Home is where the fragrance of sweet Banana Nut bread baking in my oven permeates the entire house while candlelight glows in tandem with the full moonlight beaming brightly through  living room windows.

Home is Spiritual...

It comes along wherever I take my Being to places that are joy-filled. It is the stillness during a meditation when my eyes are closed and life in the physical world slows down and the dull roar becomes a gentle whisper...

Home is where the trees rustle as the wind of Spirit playfully tickles their leaves.

Home is the sea with blue-green waves sweeping the sandy shore as I inhale the intoxicating salty sea air!

Where seagulls plant their orange, spindly feet upon my lightly sunburned shoulders as they plead to me with those piercing all-knowing Avian eyes for "some of what I'm having."-And then, Home is when I "give in." 

Home is the company of family, not necessarily blood relatives, but my tribe of people and creatures that I have a history with. Where I am emotionally embraced and supported without judgement. 

Most of all, Home is Love... it's wherever I AM and I AM  everywhere I take me!

Spring is Here and New Dreams Come With It!

Well, I feel as tho I have weathered the greater part of my "storm" although the storm is not quite over yet, however I can see light at the end of the tunnel so to speak! My Mom's birthday is coming up on Monday, April 2nd and this has given me the wonderful idea to *finally* begin writing my first book on her birthday, in her honor. Mom used to love to write poetry and writing in general as well as having a true fondness for children. The book I am going to write is Divinely inspired (aren't they ALL LOL...) by a gift given to me by my Mom. What makes this gift so special is that it was given to me AFTER my Mom made her transition back to non-physical in 1993! The book will revolve around the Snowy Owl (see my snowy owl story in this blog at an earlier date.) This is going to be great fun and I just know my Mom will be helping me to write it! Happy Spring everyone!

At the End of the Trail....

I haven't written a new blog post in what seems like eons, but here we go! My life has been extremely fast-paced and full of major changes in the past year or so. In 2011, I moved twice, after not being able to keep my Clarkston apt, when after being seriously injured at work in 2010 from a fall,( worker's comp decided I was magically cured and didn't really still need 2 surgeries)- I moved into an acquaintance's trailer home and then after 2 months, was told I would have to move out 30 days later, by January 1st 2012.This really threw me as she had previously told me I could stay "as long as I needed to", and that she "couldn't ask for a better roommate..." I spent a fast and furious week immediately after Christmas in 24/7 prayer and vigilantly searched craigslist, newspapers, and drove through neighborhoods to find a place to live. I found (or rather God found) an apt in Wolverine Lake that was relatively quiet and accepted dogs. (Not allowing dogs would have been a deal breaker!). I filled out the application and waited and waited to hear back from the independent landlord to let me know if I could have the apt or not. I made a full-time job of correcting my fear-filled thoughts and focused on only the positive as I was wrestling with the anxiety knowing that my FICO credit score went from mid 600's a year before when I had $5,000 in the bank and was working with a realtor to buy a house to the high 500's now. Since my slip and fall that occurred in May of 2010, my whole life has been rearranged. Gone are all the things I thought were important or valuable to have in my life including people I thought were friends, furniture, apt's, clothes, TV's. I have come to see and know that if someone or something is no longer a part of my life, then God is going to replace them with something far better. I like to refer to 2011 (after getting through the grief of all the losses and feeling like it was THE worst year of my entire life.) as the year that the Universe rearranged my life so that I could gain clearer vision and focus on the things and people that bring me more joy! I am no longer willing to subject myself or take part in anything that does not bring me joy! Period. End of story.
 Life is very short, and I believe we must LIVE a happy life, not spend the majority of it in "pursuit" of happiness! My life is now, not tomorrow, not yesterday, but now. NOW is all we have, but you know, it is more than enough! I am not "out of the woods" yet, but I can definitely see the lake at the end of the trail!

Even If Yer Ass Falls Off...

After waiting in the local human services office for 3 hours this past Monday I was told I was not eligible for either Medicaid or the state disability assistance program by not one, but two women (this must have been in case I decided to go postal on my case worker.)The "SDA" was designed to help provide cash assistance for people who have no income and Medicaid was created for people with low or no-income that meet certain um, "criteria." I was stunned to say the least! Altho I   have zero income right now, creditors haunt my cell phone daily to inquire if just 3 days after I last spoke with them if anything changed in my income status that would enable me to come up with payments amounting anywhere from $50 to $189. I visualize telling them "why, yes! I just won the Mega Millions Lottery yesterday! -sure, I can gladly pay you Tuesday..." or, "Ya know, my hip labrum tear, femur displacement and rotator cuff tear all miraculously healed, and then I was offered a dream job all within 3 days!-sure, how much money do you need for me to bring my account up to date?"

 My federal student loans for nursing school  going back to  2005 totaling over $17,000 have been placed in deferment indefinitely. To add salt to this wound, I was informed that I will be responsible for paying ALL of the continually accruing interest  on said deferred federal loans!  How nice...

In August, I  was forced to break a one year lease by just ONE month and I lost my beautiful 2 bedroom 2 bath 1,000 square foot apartment in a quaint middle class Michigan suburban town. (because I was 45 and disabled not 55 and disabled.)

I sold everything I own on either Ebay or Craigslist, including the brand new furniture I still owe the furniture company over $3,000 for, and dropped off remaining various and sundry items for 2 weekend garage sales to friend's homes. I took my Dell desktop PC to a computer geek friend to have it "gutted" so I could sell it as well. (I still need money to make my $317 a month car payment!)

"Loss"  has become my middle name for the past fourteen months when just prior to May of 2010, life was much rosier and I had $5,000 in the bank and I was working with a Realtor to purchase my first house at 44 (FORTY-four and there's so much more!...)- financially, my life was quite peachy!

 Serenity eluded me this past summer as two days before my 45th birthday,  I received a letter in the mail from the worker comp insurance company informing me that I was no longer going to be receiving medical care or lost wages. (Altho  to this day at the very least I still need hip and  shoulder surgeries.) I called charities, churches and food banks  in July and was continually informed that either I did not qualify because I was not a resident of this city or that township, or  routinely got  a "sorry, but we are all out of funds/ways and means/food..."  I still await word from my attorney that my worker's comp insurance company  has been ordered to pay for the 2 surgeries I've  needed since my slip and fall almost a year and a half ago as well as repay my  lost wages. The pain in my right hip has gotten worse and my shoulder range of motion is documented to be less than half of what it was prior to the surgery I had last November. (Good thing I decided to hoard some of my pain medications!)

There have been days  I've  wondered if I was perhaps born under a "dark star", or "it must be my Scorpio Rising" giving me grief as everyone in the metaphysical community KNOWS that anyone having anything remotely "Scorpionic" in their charts spells a life of more than a few challenges...  =) or that I must have been  Jack-the-Ripper's first cousin in a past life and now it is time to pay my "karmic dues."  Or  that this must be my "valley time" in life's peaks and valleys...Hey, I thought I already went thru the "Valley Stage" as a teenaged "Valley Girl" growing up in San Diego in the 80's!!!...like totally NOT!

 I even thought, being the undogmatic and so not-religious-but-spiritual person that I am, (after all, my name "Christine" stands for "fair Christian" not "good" Christian or "devout Christian" but "fair Christian!"...)that perhaps this is just my "Job-time"  like the famous story of Job in the Bible? and  I'm  supposed to learn some type of spiritual lesson? And finally, hey! this  SURELY, must be evidence of  my VERY LAST INCARNATION on Earth! ;)

But no, this is life. No one gets out unscathed. No one. Not anyone. Anywhere...

I have finally come to the realization that no matter how sunny everyone's life looks on the outside, everyone goes thru some type of grief or trauma. It's par for the course...(even for us non-golfers).The soccer Mom and the corporate CEO Dad with a nuclear family living in yuppity uppity middle class suburbia only look "normal" on the outside. On the inside, there are soccer Mom's having affairs with school principals, and nuclear children with personality disorders.  There are corporate CEO Dads writing off more than just business lunches. The smiling waitress at Big Boy serving your meals has a mother who just died and she has no money for the funeral. The police officer that pulled you over for speeding has a young wife he dearly loves who is dying of cancer and at the same time, he has to take care of his invalid 84-year-old father with Alzheimer's and pack lunches for his 7 year-old daughter.

What can one do? One can say an abbreviated version of the famous Serenity prayer, and yell out like Seinfeld, "Serenity NOW!" Or "God, help!" She can buy stock in Kleenex and cry. And cry. He can pray, he can scream in his car despite on-lookers...(hey, for all they know, he could be talking on his Blue-tooth!). This too shall pass...

A Chill in the Air

It's a grey, breezy morning and dozens of miniature raindrops grace my dining room window. Just a few days ago, it was a sweltering hot and humid 100 degrees in southeast Michigan and now, Autumn has settled in at least until "Indian Summer" comes to visit for one last  finale of summer  in mid-October.

 Autumn has always been my favorite season...of all time! Life slows down, kids go back to school, there is the delicious scent of burning leaves in neighbors' backyards, local cider mills open and welcome families to their famous Michigan "plain" donuts warm and fresh from the oven along with plenty of apple cider.    There is time to reflect upon the first 3/4 of the year that has already passed so incredibly fast! A new sense of clarity ensues... We can hear the music of our souls more clearly as the nights become longer and our dreams  become more vivid. Autumn is a time of reflection, remembering, giving thanks, of redirecting and "tweaking" our dreams and aspirations. A sense of profound peace permeates our Beings with an  appreciation for all the joyful experiences of the earlier portion of the year. Autumn is also the time when next Spring's  babies are lovingly conceived under a warm quilt with  the glowing ambience  of a lit fireplace. 

With the season of Light right around the corner, people are thinking of loved ones  and beginning to prepare for gift-giving and festive celebrations. 

Being Divinely interconnected with Mother Earth, We humans; like our animal friends, are devoting time to hunting and gathering and/or stocking up on food for the Winter.  A sense of hibernation ensues as we plop on the sofa on a chilly Friday evening with our loved one and enjoy a movie and a bowl of freshly popped gourmet popcorn smothered with butter and dowsed with salt. All is well in our Autumn world...

The Angel Invitation

Last week as I was reading through some of my favorite facebook wall pages, I read a post from a friend who was writing about an "Angel Ritual." This intrigued me- so I sent her an email requesting more information about it. She sent me the details of which I became enthralled and knew I had to  participate! It sounded like having a formal "Angel Party" in my home! How fun I thought, even though I know we do not have to be so formal with our requests for Angelic assistance or their presence for whenever we ask the Angels to be near us, they are there in an instant!

 I like to refer to it as my "Angel Recipe" instead of "Angel Ritual" as I am fond of food (perhaps a little too fond!) and cooking and it has a less "witchy" tone to it. (Not that there is anything wrong with people who are affiliated with  the Wicca religion.)The "Angel Recipe" read as follows:

It is the wish of the Angels to work with 3 individuals over 5 consecutive days and help each fulfill 3 personal wishes. (I consider these to be requests, or prayers... something you would like to see become manifest into your physical reality.)Afterward, each individual sends the Angels on to 3 new individuals who agree to accept them. The Angels stay with them over the next 5 days and then continue on to 3 new hosts. The Angels always arrive at the next host place at 10:30PM and leave on the 5th night at 10:30PM. It has been said that by the 20th cycle, the whole world could be affected; so large is the exponential function! There is a ritual for inviting the Angels into your home: Hosting requirements are: a white candle, (I used a white tea-lite candle as they only burn a couple hours and are low-risk for burning down your house lol)a white flower,or flowering plant (I gathered some white wildflowers-some may call them weeds, but like one of my favorite authors and healers, Dr Eric Pearl states "What's the difference between a weed and a flower?...PERCEPTION!" - Eric Pearl and his amazing book, "The Reconnection Heal Others Heal Yourself" has changed my life and entire belief system regarding spirituality and healing so profoundly since I was graced with a copy of his book and read it cover to cover in 2 evenings about 4 months ago!

Well I had to believe the Angels would appreciate my wildflower-weeds! =),  apple offering,(I used a Granny Smith apple lol) and 2 envelopes. The first envelope contains 3 personal wishes. The second envelope contains the names and geographic locations of your 3 friends who have agreed to host the Angels next. You need to ensure that you can be home at 10:30PM on the evenings of the Angels' arrival and departure. Before they arrive at your home, choose a suitable place in your bedroom as an altar.

"Welcome Ceremony"

On the expected evening, be home at 10:30PM to receive the Angels. Before they arrive, light the candle. 

1. Bless a white candle by saying "May God's Angels be present by lighting this candle" and put it in a candleholder which can burn safely while you sleep.(you can also use an artificial flame candle if the idea of allowing a real flame candle to burn while you sleep makes you anxious.)

2. Beside the candle, place a white flower in a bowl or vase. It is also OK to use a white flowering plant.(or in my case, since I could not afford to buy flowers, a few white wildflowers/ weeds even!-since it is all about intention!) 

3. Next to the candle and flower, place an envelope containing the names and addresses (geographical locale -like city and state is fine if you do not know the exact addresses of your 3 friends! afterall, the Angels "have your number!"-or energy-vibration!) of the 3 hosts who have agreed to accept the Angels after you.

4. In a second envelope, insert a paper with your HANDWRITTEN 3 wishes. (Handwriting makes a better connection to the Angels.-it's all about energy folks!)

5. On top of the envelope containing your 3 wishes, place an apple as an offering.(I used a green Granny Smith apple in the hopes that perhaps some of the Angels would appreciate a wee bit of sour versus sweet.- I know they did!)This step reminded me so much of being a 5 year-old kid excitedly setting out milk and cookies for Santa Claus on Christmas Eve! Only the best thing with this is the Angels are with you for five entire days not just one evening! If you have small children, this would be such a lovely and enchanting thing to do with their participation! The whole time, I kept thinking if I had kids, I would be doing this with them!

6. At 10:30PM open the front door of your home. (Physically, not just symbolically) and bid the Angels welcome with the following words:

"PLEASE ENTER ANGELS AND BE WELCOME, YOU WHO HAVE COME FROM GOD. THANK YOU FOR COMING AND ENVELOPING BOTH THIS PLACE AND ALL THE PEOPLE AND ANIMALS (I included "and animals" as I have a beloved pet Ringneck dove named "Uriel" named after the Archangel of Light -of course...wink wink! and a miniature Dachshund, "Malachy" which means "God's Messenger" and what is another word for God's messenger, kids?... "ANGEL"!) WHO STAY HERE. THOSE WHO ENTER WITH PURITY AND PEACE. THANK YOU FOR HAVING CHOSEN TO COME AND BLESS MY LIFE AND THE LIVES OF THE PEOPLE AND ANIMALS AROUND ME WITH HARMONY, LOVE, JOY, WISDOM, AND STRENGTH. THANK YOU ALSO, FOR WISHING TO FULFILL THE 3 WISHES WHICH ARE VERY IMPORTANT TO ME."

7. During the 5 days that the Angels are with you, light a small white candle ( a tea-lite or votive candle works best) each night before you go to bed. The candle will burn out as you sleep. You will need 4 candles, because on the 5th night you are saying goodbye to the Angels.

8. If you usually pray or meditate, this is a good time to communicate with the Angels.(even if you don't usually pray or meditate, I guarantee ya, you will WANT to this night!) during their days with you, there are no requirements to do anything special, (They make it so easy for us!) other than be present at 10:30PM on the first and last evening and lighting a candle each night.

Goodbye Ceremony:

At 10:30PM on the fifth night, you physically open your front door and say thank you and goodbye to the Angels. Then send them lovingly on to the 3 new hosts who have agreed to receive them. (I will have to work on this one I think, as I will likely find it hard to let them go!) Read their names and addresses (or geographic locations i.e. city, State, country). PLEASE NOTE: The Angels will arrive to your 3 friends' homes FIVE NIGHTS AFTER you have bid them farewell from YOUR home.This means that there is a 5 day time period between the 5th night the Angels leave your home and when they actually are welcomed into your friends' homes.In another way to explain, your individual "encounter" with the Angels lasts 10 days. They are with you for the 1st 5 days, then they work on assisting you with your 3 requests the 2nd 5 days after leaving your home, then they go to your friends' homes at 10:30PM on the 10th night from your first night! (I am clarifying this in more detail as I found my original instructions to be  a little  bit confusing .)

This is to allow the Angels time to assist you in the manifestation of your requests!(Even though I personally believe that since we are all multi-dimensional beings and our time-space-reality is relative therefore this step should not be necessary!- but I play along anyway-why? because it's FUN!) Arrange to send this information on to the 3 new hosts and explain the dates.

Reminder: Start thinking about your 3 wishes and your 3 people immediately. Also very important: Be specific in your requests. (If you want to lose weight, say how much, over what period of time, that you don't want to feel hungry etc... Maybe you want to be self-employed or become a best-selling author. Indicate what kind of work you want to do. What kind of best-selling book do you want to write? How you would like to help other people with the words you publish?...State your requested income you would like to make, what type of working environment, what hours you would like to keep etc... The more specific you are, the easier it will be for the Angels to help.

Well, today is day 4 of hosting these precious beings in my home! On the first night, Sunday night- I welcomed them into my apartment with Dachshund in tow. "Malachy" immediately sensed their presence even before I had opened the front door! For the following thirty minutes or so after their invitation, Malachy was very inquisitve and nosing around the house looking to find "other people." There has been a delightful peace and serenity in both my home and my heart since Sunday night. Last night, Tuesday- I decided I was going to take a picture of my Angel Altar so I could share its beauty with some of my friends on facebook who are also inviting the Angels. Not knowing where my digital camera was offhand, I used my iphone 4 cell phone camera and snapped a pic. The room was lit with a standard 100 watt light bulbed lamp at my bedside, and just the small white votive candle at the altar area. There was no glare or reflection from the bedroom windows as the blinds were completely closed. I uploaded the picture of my Angel altar to my facebook page. Nothing looked out of the ordinary about it to me. Later that evening, a friend made a comment about my picture asking me if I noticed the Angel sitting at the top upper left-hand portion of the middle photo frame of the picture of my Mom (who had transitioned in 1993).

I immediately, took another gander at the picture on my computer and couldn't believe what I was seeing! There WAS an Angel perched on top of my Mom's photo frame! Complete with 2 wings at her sides, what looks like a pinkish translucent robe, and her head.... None of the other 2 photo frames had anything odd about them, just the photo frame of my Mom! If you enlarge your computer screen and look at the Angel altar picture above, you can clearly see this Angel!

I am always in such AWE when the Angels decide to reveal themselves in this physical world! What a gift! 

It is my sincere wish that anyone who reads my story and partakes in the "Angel Recipe" has all their wishes come true! With much love and Light!